2012

I am excited about this new year and all of the things it means for our family. I was going to make some resolutions such as:

• get a sewing machine and learn to sew
• stop biting my nails
• never let my car have more than 2 dirty sippy cups in it at a time
• read 50 new books
• paint our bedroom and finally decorate it
• etc. etc. etc.

And then I realized I was making more of a "to do" list than doing things to better myself which is what a resolution should ultimately be about, right?Well, I'm too busy for any of those things up there right now- who the hell am I kidding thinking I'll be able to do any of those things? (except I really should quit biting my nails). But in all seriousness, I just think I should use the first half of this year to relax as much as I can. Stop feeling guilty when I say "no" to social obligations, and just enjoy Chad and Cole. Once this new baby comes, everything will be turned upside down (in a good way of course)and then I really won't have time for crazy things like sewing. or reading. or probably even showering for that matter. So... I guess I am resolving to be somewhat selfish with my time by spending most of it with our families and my two boys. Is that really considered selfish? It's not that I don't spend 95 % of my free time with my family already, but the quality of time probably hasn't been the best since I am too busy worrying about 100 other things.  I have had a really busy year at work and although it's been pretty fruitful, I have sort of lost touch with things that are most important and I feel totally guilty about it. Chad is always telling me that I worry too much about the wrong things and I know he's right. So, I'm going to try to worry less about things that aren't important and just focus on being a more patient mom and attentive wife. Just reading that makes me feel horrible! So,here's to what I know will be a really exciting year for us but I hope I am able to balance all of it!